Palm Sunday

  Confession:  I sometimes have a hard time getting in to celebrating religious holidays.  I did not grow up going to church very often, so terms like advent, passover, and palm Sunday had little to no meaning.  I celebrated Christmas and Easter, but with Santa and the Easter Bunny.   Now that I am learning to love God with all my heart, Christmas and Easter have such a richer, deeper meaning, but I still have a hard time celebrating them.   I think it feels a little insincere to make such a big deal of Jesus coming to earth only at Christmas or reflecting on what Jesus did on the cross only at Easter.  I want God to know how important I think it is that Jesus died for me every day of the year, not just on the anniversary of what he did.   But then I realize that my thinking is flawed.  If this same principle was applied across the board, I would need to stop celebrating birthdays, anniversaries, mother’s day, etc.   Here’s what I mean:   I love to celebrate birthdays.  I want the person to feel loved and valued and special every day of the year, but I think everyone should have one day a year that they feel extra special.  I doubt anyone who has received an extravagant celebration feels it was insincere, unless they do not feel loved and valued on the other 364 days of the year.   At the risk of being completely obvious, I will just say it:  If Easter is the only time of year that we reflect on what Jesus did, then we ARE being insincere.  If, however, on the other 364 days of the year we affirm what we celebrate on that ONE day of the year, then the extra celebration serves to more deeply root our love and commitment.   So I have concluded that it is good, and completely genuine, to take a day a year to go above and beyond in our thankfulness and adoration.  Just like in preparing for a birthday, some advanced[…]

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Does God Poop?

  It’s an honest question.  Does God poop?  I have wondered many things about God, but I can’t say I have wondered about that.  I understand that putting God’s name in the same sentence as the word poop can be offensive to some people.  If that is you, I am sorry.  I mean no offense.  This is a valid question from the heart of a 4 year old who genuinely wants to know his Maker better.  As him mom, I will let him ask his questions, and I will encourage his genuine, childlike wonder.   We learn in school that there are no stupid questions.  Maybe that is true and maybe it isn’t, but one thing is true:  asking questions is what opens the door for greater understanding, if it is understanding we seek.  “Stupid” questions are usually not seeking greater understanding.   We know that God is more than capable and strong enough to handle any question we throw his way.  He is not shocked by our blatant honesty nor our sometimes flagrant disrespect.  He receives each question, knowing the longing in our hearts that fuels our questions (Luke 16:15).  He looks beyond what is said to the heart that the words come from.  He understands.   Asking questions can help us know God better as well as help us know others better.  We do not grow in relationship with someone by waiting around for them to offer information and insight.  We have to ask.  We ask because we want to know.  We ask because we want to show that we care about them.  We ask because that is the only way to grow closer to a person.   When we ask questions, we have the opportunity to grow in understanding, but merely asking questions does not guarantee we will gain understanding.  We have to WANT to gain understanding.  In doing so, we will ask good questions.   I don’t know about you, but I have been a part of many conversations where questions are asked, but the person ends up backing you into a corner rather than drawing[…]

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Loveless Obedience

  “Do not touch things that do not belong to you.”  I feel like a broken record with my son.  He has far too much curiosity to remember the 500 times I have told him to not touch things that are not his.  The other day, he was playing with one of grandma’s figurines, and it broke.  Of course.  I told him not to touch it/play with it, but he could not resist.  The result was:  something that had value to someone else was broken.  Disobedience usually results in someone getting hurt.   It is hard for Joshua to learn this lesson because it does not hurt him when he breaks something that belongs to someone else.  It does not hurt him when he frustrates his sister by playing with her things.  The only “pain” he feels is the consequences that I impose on him, in order to help the message stick.  I give him a consequence because I want his heart to care.   The whole point of consequences is to turn the heart back on course.  The problem is, kids can learn to obey, mainly to avoid a consequence, but it does not mean that their heart has actually changed.  Do I want Joshua to learn to obey in order to avoid a negative consequence, or do I just want him to learn to respect other people’s things?  Obviously I want the latter.   In order to achieve a change of heart, the heart needs to be addressed and engaged.  When Joshua broke grandma’s glass elephant, his heart was touched when I explained how sad that would make grandma.  He suddenly felt awful and wished he had obeyed.  He learned the hard way, and unfortunately, someone else had to get hurt as well before the lesson began to sink in.  (Thankfully he is learning these lessons when the “hurt” is relatively minor)   We are God’s children and the obedience he calls us to plays by the same rules.  Our heart must be engaged in order for the obedience to have great value.   Lately, I feel like[…]

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Glory

I have been thinking a lot about the word “glory” this week.  It is a term that is thrown around quite a bit amongst Jesus folk.  Since starting a relationship with Jesus as an early adult, I have adopted the use of the term, but its significance has been lost throughout most of my journey.  I just have not “gotten” it.  Am I alone here?   I am reading Breaking Free by Beth Moore with my “Wednesday Women.”  Beth admits that to try and understand the meaning of a word like glory, as it refers to God, is incredibly difficult, but she offers this insight:  glory is to make God known or give him recognition.  To give God glory is to make him known or seen.  When God reveals his glory, He is giving man insight into who he is.  When the Bible says that the whole earth is full of his glory, it means that the whole earth is full of these tiny revelations of who God is.  Glory = the representation of God (which is highly complex and comes in countless forms)   Thanks to our amazing Michigan winter, I was up on my roof last week shoveling off the few feet of snow that were up there.  As I paused to catch my breath during this arduous task, I looked around at our property and my heart was captivated.  It is beautiful.  I get to look at this marvelous sight every day and I am beyond thankful.  Yet, in having a slightly different perspective (standing on the roof), I was awestruck anew.  It is amazing what a slight change in perspective can do.   Since “glory” has been on my mind lately, I have begun plugging in my new understanding of the word “glory” and my eyes have been opened.   Psalm 19:1 – “The heavens declare (who God is), the skies proclaim the work of his hands.”   2 Corinthians 3:18 – “And we, who with unveiled faces, all reflect (who God is), are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing (revelation of who God is),[…]

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Reckless Hope

I received an email yesterday, that if legit, has the power to shake things up a bit.  I won’t go into the details just yet, but I will perk your curiosity by saying that it made me cry, made me ponder, and revealed some hidden places in my heart.   In my pondering and wondering, I have discovered that I possess this reckless hope.  Reckless is not usually a positive adjective.  In fact, it might be the opposite of self-control.  Recklessness does not regard its surroundings.  It does not consider the outcome of its actions.  Recklessness blazes forward without thinking it through.  Reckless is the best word I can use to describe this HOPE that I possess.   I have a stubborn hope that refuses to relent, even when I might experience more peace if it did.  If you’ve read any of my blog posts, then you know that I have desired another child for quite some time.  Every month, I hold out this stubborn hope that I will be pregnant, even when all the signs are pointing toward an answer of “No,” for this month.  It does not matter how much I argue with myself, I can not shake this hope.   Having hope, without a fulfillment of that hope, is exhausting.  Therefore, I find myself wanting to know when this journey will conclude.  I want to KNOW what the answers are.  I just want to have matters settled.   I have matured a lot over the last few years of dealing with infertility.  Any anxiety I feel as I wait for answers is no longer because I am holding on to a particular outcome.  Now I feel anxious because I do not KNOW.  I do not know how to move forward and that makes me anxious.  If the outcome is not what I want (I am not pregnant), I really am okay with that.  There is no anxiety there.  The anxiety comes from not knowing.  Once I know, either “yes” or “no,” I am good.  This is true for me in any circumstance.   This email that I[…]

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Welcome to unwaveringhope.com!  I am so glad you are here. This space was created when my life story was not following the path I expected.  For years, infertility was the main topic of my wrestle.  These days, I find myself sorting through the mental chaos of mothering, wife-ing, friend-ing, teacher-ing, daughter-ing and what-is-my-life-purpose-ing.  As I try to steady my thoughts and park them in a healthy place, God has made one thing clear:  maintaining hope in Him is the key. Check out my blog for a window into my story.

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