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Hope Deferred is meant to serve as a companion for anyone dealing with infertility, either personally or through a loved one. In this book, Jillian shares her personal experience with infertility and the insight she has gleaned along the way. In Hope Deferred, Jillian wrestles through some of the deep questions that affect the person dealing with infertility:
Why are my prayers unanswered?
Is God mad at me? Is that why He isn’t giving me a child?
Is God causing this to teach me something?
In Hope Deferred, Jillian addresses these questions and so much more. She helps the reader draw closer to God in a season where the tendency is to pull away due to the difficult questions – specifically about what God’s involvement is as a player in this story. Jillian’s goal is to illuminate God’s heart, as seen throughout the whole Bible. With a clearer understanding of God’s heart toward the infertile person, Jillian offers hope to the one who is desiring a child.
Jillian is not afraid to share openly and honestly about her struggles along the way. You will quickly realize that, although your story is different, you have a sister who understands. Join Jillian as she gives you a window into her journey in hopes that you will find greater freedom, joy, and peace.
A Look inside the book:
Table of Contents:
Preface
Ch 1 – The Lonely Road
Ch 2 – God, Why Aren’t You Fixing This?
Ch 3 – God’s Goodness vs. Distorted Truths
Ch 4 – Wired to Be a Mom
Ch 5 – Consumed
Ch 6 – Trouble Traps
Ch 7 – The Medical Facts of Life
Ch 8 – Live in the Moment
Ch 9 – Joy Comes in the Mourning
Ch 10 – Power of Praise
Ch 11 – The Chapter for the Man
Ch 12 – Answering Outsider Questions Like Adoption
An Excerpt from the book:
The Lonely Road – Chapter 1
“Nobody knows…the trouble I’ve seen…Nobody knows my sorrows.” ~Unknown
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” (Psalm 46:1)
There must be something in the water. I got tired of hearing this explanation for why there was a plethora of pregnant bellies sticking out everywhere I looked. I was drinking the same water, but I had no cute baby bump. It was ridiculous how many people were having children. When you are in your child-bearing years, you can expect to have pregnancies in your life. Naturally, some (okay, many) of your friends will be having babies. The Lord knows this was the case in my life, and I truly believe I was a part of the most fertile church in North America. When you mix together a congregation comprised of mostly people in their twenties and thirties and cold Michigan winters, you get babies cooking everywhere you look. Most couples were popping out a child every eighteen months to two years. The nursery at this church was bursting at the seams, and it did not look like the baby boom would be slowing down anytime soon. When I finally had my second child, no one from the church even knew to bring us a meal. There were that many babies. You did not get noticed for having one, and the sad reality was that everyone was too busy to notice if you were not having one. This was the environment I was surrounded with as I was on the lonely road of desiring a child. There were pregnant bellies everywhere I turned, and it did not seem like there were any people walking the same path as I.
I am going to assume you can understand where I am coming from. When you desire to become pregnant, it feels like everyone around you is pregnant or just had a baby. At one point, I made a list of every woman I knew who was in a position to have a child. I guess I wanted to prove that I was not crazy. I wanted to prove that I was the exception, that truly EVERYONE was getting pregnant. There were over 30 women on my list. (By the way, I do not recommend making a list – it only leads to despair as you realize that conceiving a baby is a lot easier for some than others.) The 30th person on my list got pregnant the month before we conceived our son, our 2nd born. If you do not have a list on paper, no doubt you have a list in your head. At every joyous announcement, a check mark is added to your fateful checklist that, when completed, means you are the last one picked for the team. When you are surrounded by Fertile Myrtles, desiring a child can feel very lonely.
Only ONE knows the answer for when you will finally be able to hold a little miracle in your arms.
This is an answer He often chooses not to share. There must be a reason…
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